You guys were once partners in crime. You did everything together. You hung out during weekends, talked on the phone for hours, ate lunch together, told each other secrets, shared the same hobbies, played sports and video games together. You knew each other so well that you could finish each other’s sentences. But suddenly, things changed.
Breaking a relationship like this can be really painful. People grow apart and it’s never easy to accept. The feeling of not being wanted anymore and having someone else take your place just sucks. But you should understand that part of growing up is letting new people into your life, and that could sometimes mean letting go of those who no longer want to stay. Not all friendships are worth restoring, ‘cause there are people who’s mission in your life’s just short - like that ex of yours who hurt you. Forcing them to stay could be just as hurtful as letting them go.
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*I read this particular post in tumblr. Again, I'm not the original writer and I just reblogged it. The moment I laid my on the title, I had this gut feel of what the post is about. Its obviously about friends turned strangers. You know, there's also this notion about estranged friends and not just the usual lovers to strangers concept. I immediately imagined what if we become strangers in the future? An eternal of things can happen, its just a matter of time and situation. We've been through tough times and I will admit that we admit rock bottom. Well, if you won't believe we were both hospitalized in the same week, maybe one can argue that the strains in our friendship was not a bit connected to why we were hospitalized but I'm sure it adds to it. I don't want to open up what happened two years ago but I guess it is significant to make my point clearer. I believe we were on the brink of estrangement at that time. Fortunately, we hadn't. Why? because of the main fact that we are classmates in the same course, same school, with the same circle of friends. Our world are interconnected in some ways. It even added by the fact that I was the director in our theater production and she's one of my cast. So we have no choice but to work with each other. Things happened and we were able to restore the friendship and the closeness. But I guess not totally. They say when you torn a paper, even if you still able to bring back the pieces (through scotchtape, I guess), the tracks can still be seen. We may have restore our friendship but there is something I think we could no longer fix. That's just sad. I guess it's the consequence of my actions before. There's only one thing I hope and always prayed to God to, that we will never be friends turned strangers. It would be very painful. I honestly almost gave up countless times. But I can't just give up all the memories we've had and the times we had each other's back. The last time, I was disappointed, I was upset that I never recovered for two days. I was caught off guard and it felt like someone punched me hard on the chest. I know she might read this but trust me (to you), I never intent to hurt you and give you guilt feelings. I was hurt by my own doings, by my own stupid mind. I'm the one who, after two years, can't still move on. And I guess it would be indefinite when I would be able to move on. I'm sorry. My greatest fear aside from losing my family is losing you. To unfriend you once and for all. I just hope we would never be strangers.
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