Thursday, April 18, 2013

Always Believe in GOODNESS!


Be good in the phase of failure. Sometimes being the best means being the least. Be good even after you made a mistake. Sometimes being good, just voice down to be able to say sorry. Sometimes being good, is loving the people who hurt you. And making the most difficult choices that may hurt the people you love. Madalas sa kagustuhan nating maging pinakamagaling, nakakalimutan nating maging mabuti. We lose sight of the fact, that everyday is a struggle to just be better. Being good, is what kept my family together. Being good, is what built and sustain this company. Being good, is what will move it forward, for the future of our children, and for our children’s children. It’s not the easiest, but that is probably the best legacy that a person can leave behind. To always believe in goodness. And just be a good man.” - Luis Montenegro

It Takes A Man And A Woman

Monday, April 15, 2013

Messed up, BIG TIME.

You know that feeling when it was not intention to do wrong or hurt others but you end up doing it unintentionally. Yeah, maybe I messed up. Or yeah, I really did messed up. People say it was just an honest mistake but how can I say it if in the first place, they already expect me to do things I usually do. It sucks to say sorry but if it's the only word I can muster to ease the guilt I suddenly felt, then maybe getting humbled is better. 

It's been a while since I've been like this, wanting to write something about what I'm feeling at this exact moment. It's been a while since my brain actually speaking the words spontaneously while I'm writing this. Yeah, it really sucks. This guilt had given me burden and additional stress. I just hope this month will end. It has been a hell month for me. I want to release all my frustrations, stress, insecurity, all negative feelings that has eaten me this past few weeks. Wow, now I feel like crying,. My tears are just uncontrollable. I don't know what to say or write after tears started falling in my eyes. I questions myself, AM I SELFISH? AM I STUPID? Why do I always fail? why do I make myself look stupid to others? Why do people don't believe what I am saying? why do they think I'm just a shallow person? why can't I forget the hurtful things others had done to me? Am I revengeful that I can hold grudges for a long time? This feeling really sucks. I hurt my friends, I disappoint my family, I fail at work, I look stupid when I'm with intelligent individuals. I know everything are all trials to make me stronger but why can't I learn my lessons??